It's all about the money?

Life will never be easy as how you want it to be. So I have been working part time recently, honestly it ain't easy to earn money by your own effort, you really have to pay off in form of sleeping hours, study hours, & of course your energy. But you know what, I actually like my life now. There is no time to be wasted, my life is now full of challenge and I actually look forward for every tomorrow. 

Life is a bitch, yes money is very important, not like you can live without money in this reality world. I love how I can simply spend on food and clothes I wanted to buy, am feeling really good. HA! But I know, I'm chasing money to hard, it's not a good thing, cuz it might be money face just like the picture above. What you see is just money, money, money. Been telling myself, don't take money as your whole life, don't die chasing money for your whole life. 

Phuket Day 1

Just came back from Phuket 4 days ago, been rushing assignment all day all night

A short update about my first day in Phuket, and some useful tips when you plan to visit there next time

Took an afternoon flight to Phuket from KL at 4.15pm, reached there at 4.35pm, wonder how 20minutes can reach Phuket? Nah, Thailand time zone is one hour later than in Malaysia. So basically it took us 1hour and 20minutes to the destination

A reminder to whoever planning to visit there, book a morning flight so you have plenty of time to compare the price of taxi at Phuket airport cuz ya know the price they set is crazy, you have to bargain with them for at least 50-70% of the price that shown on the list, go for the next counter if they don't offer the price that you think is reasonable.

So we rent a van at 1200baht (10 of us) from airport to Bamboo Resort which located at Patong Beach. It took us 45minutes to reached the resort.

 Bamboo Resort and Spa (spend our 4days 3nights here) 

Customer services: 4/5

Cleanliness of room: 4/5

Toilet: 2/5

Facilities: 3/5

Price: 5/5

Overall still ok. 3 nights only cost each of us RM58.50. For more info click here

The swimming pool just right in front of our room, taebaek!

I'm ready to go out to see what's in Patong town

Don't forget to take some silly picture when you are away from your place, no people will stare at you when you do something stupid, just be who you are, you should be silly once in a while =P

Not bad ey the view here 

It was dinner time, we should have eat something Thai, but ended up we went to a Japanese restaurant 

*so sad* Nevermind, nevermind, the food is nice thou 

扑街, 你同我收声! 不好意思, NG了. 食物到了, 吃先

Slurp, I miss the food there, not Thai food, but Japanese food in this Fuji Japanese Restaurant. The Kimchi there is daebaek, it even nicer than those kimchi that serve in Korean restaurant!

Desert after dinner, found this very special ice cream where you can upside down it and it would not fall!

Nothing much on that day, went to BIG C, a place like tesco in Malaysia, everything is cheap there. Bring a big luggage when you visit there, not to put clothes, but to put these snacks!

The soft drinks are even bigger than my tights and longer than my waist! HA!

It was so windy at Patong beach side! Love the weather there at night but not in the afternoon cuz it been raining the whole day, fuck that!

The end for day 1, exhausted and tired

Lost

I'm feeling lost, so stressful recently. There is something in me to keep me going, to motivated me to go far, to be strong. Family is very important to me, no matter what you do, they still forgive you even though you repeating the same mistake for thousand times. I hate asking help from others, but sometimes we all need help. That one feeling you hate but you still need to do it. Isn't it awful and the awkward moment is when people already say it out, but you still can't get the point which they trying to tell you, and you still ask for a clearer answer which is hurt. It can't be hurt if you just nod and said, ok, I get it at the first place. Assignment driving me crazy, I hate that feeling that I have to rush everything at one time. I did not do last minutes work, but all come in once, I couldn't bear the stress. I just feel like crying whenever I'm down, I'm stress. Hard time will over, I just need to stay strong. To be dependent, first you need to learn how to bear the pain, the stress, and thing that brings you down.

Love, 
Vivian.

SYMBOLS represent YOU

During midnight or whenever I'm listening to songs alone in the living room, I will be over thinking. Think that will I be a good girlfriend? & a lot more questions spinning in my mind.

I shouldn't demanding so much cuz I never give out the best in me to you, but I just keep demanding. This is one of the thing in me I should change other than my attitude. I apologise to people whom I always demanding from you but I never give back what is exactly I'm demanding. I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart.

Anyway, I don't know if you guys agree with me, but...... a SYMBOL can mean so much. Symbols represent what you feel and how you feel. You got it? Just for examples, compare these two sentences.
1. Please leave me alone :(
2. Please leave me alone :)

The first sentence is like you are asking the people to leave you but you yourself full of sadness, which also shows that you are not willing to do so. But then the second sentence is like you are asking the people leave you with a mood which I can considered it as happy? Yeah, happy, at least not a sad mood right. You got it? Just in case, if... if you doesn't what symbol should you add on in the back of your sentence as an ending, just leave it blank, it is not necessary to add on symbol. Police won't catch you ok (9Gag)

April Sem Break- Day 5

Had a date with secondary school friends last night. It was an awesome night to hang out together, lots of laughters, jokes, stupid topic between us, even when we stopped talking for some moment, we wouldn't felt awkward. That's how we can be friends for years and still counting.

After Nic pick me up from home, we went to Upperstar to meet up the others for some drinks. The ori plan was to Up2U for shisha and drinks, but too bad they are close on Thursday, I'm not sure if they close on every Thursday, but they closed last night :/ And us, the shisha gang wanted to shisha so badly, therefore we changed to a place which is extremely romantic and I can only use thumbs up to describe the place, Tanjung Aru First Beach. You can find shisha right beside the beach. Sitting on the sofa and shisha is life, Nic said that. Chit-chatting with the gang and feeding mosquitoes hahaha

So here are some photos taken last night, blur but still nice :D

Too late to realise

The feeling at this moment, not sad, but I see what is behind the lies. To me, always family comes first, friendship and love comes second.

What hurt the most is..... Friendship can't stand for argument, and argument do spoiled friendship. It doesn't matter how long your friendship, but once it attacked by that stupid argument. Everything just changed.

I appreciate friendship very much. If not I wouldn't apologise, wouldn't try so hard to pull it back after argument.

Heart skip a beat when you already know the truth but you still want to ask the question just because you want to get the answer itself from these human being. What hurt the most is, the truth and the answer is different, no idea how to handle but just let it be. Keep convinced myself that this is not true, this is not true. But I saw it with my own eyes, but people still lied. Keeping the lies, and the truth will never revealed.

What keep me strong is my only ambitious. Wanted to finish my study as soon as possible, so that I can explore to other countries to meet more people, to learn how to communicate with different type of people, how to social well with people.

No people will stay forever, the only person that will never leave you is your shadow...

Cheer up, xx

Random#4

Feel like blogging at this hour. Just wanted to share something with you all? Nah, I know not much people will be seeing my blog, but I still wanna share it :)

Beg once... Rejected
Beg twice... Rejected x2
Want me to beg for the third time? In your dream :)

Everyone has their own principle in life, and so do I. Don't let people step over the line of your limit. People will only take you for granted. But I once told myself, if I can take it, I will bear it down. I'm not that kind of person that you can simply step on it, I'm not saying that I'm good or I won't take people for granted.

If people apologise or head down to you, accept it, don't doh doh lan yeh. That's the main point of this post hahaha. Not every mistake can be forgive, you just gotta take your responsible for making such mistake. GOOD LUCK!

YOLO

Sometimes I think I'm ready, but sometimes I think I'm not. What do I want? What do I really want? What do I care the most? What matter the most to me?

Questions spinning in my mind, but there is no answer for all these questions.

The only sentence that I keep reminding myself is YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE!

Don't waste your time on something that will bring you down. Work harder, play harder. You have better thing to chase on, remember the only ambitious? Yes, never give up!

Love,
Vivian

Random#3

如果你问我, 爱情对我重要吗? 我会说, 如果没有爱情也许我会活不下去吧? 是有点夸张啦, 可是我是觉得爱情很重要啦..

爱情能让一个人心情变得很好很好也会变得很差很差. 我对爱情很专一, 一旦爱上了就不容易变.爱情对一个20岁出头的女生来说应该是爱的轰轰烈烈的不是吗?

迷茫.迷茫的未来,迷茫的爱情,迷茫的前途.

Lazy-Go-Happy Life

Having examination these two days.
Did not get enough sleep in days, that's why I look so yuck in the pic above, can see my eye-bags and dark circles and all. A peace sign to covered my stress.

Will get my lazy-go-happy life back after tomorrow

Gonna enjoy my April break in KK on the 7th April

I'm coming home, I'm coming home ...

Mistake to be avoided

I don't know how and what to do. I'm imbalance and heart extremely not feeling well. I don't know if I should bear thing like this, to be this low. I'm a girl that need someone to take care of but not hurting me this badly and letting me bear all the shits. When I say I'm ready, I'm ready to let go. & this time, I will keep myself to myself. Not you, not him, not anyone else.

I made promise that I'm not able to keep. But I'm trying really really hard to keep that promise, even though its not a big deal, but promise like this will get myself imbalance and I don't know. It is just so not me. Revenge not the best thing to do now. At first I regretted of what I did, but now, it seems to be reasonable. Even though it is reasonable, but I will never ever let this thing happen again, I hate me doing thing like this. I really do.

No more mistake like this. Don't ever do it again VV! Fighting...

New year, new resolution in 2013

Obviously, from the topic above, I'm gonna blog about my new year resolution. Time pass really really fast, just like you blink your eyes once, then here's a brand new year again. I've been thinking over and over again what I have not achieved last year and what I actually want to achieve in this year. *mind stuck for a second*

1. Build the best out of me 

I always wanted to be a better person, to build what is the best out of me. Honestly speaking, I don't find any 'best' in me. I always wanted to look good without any make up but in the opposite said, I always ended up look like a freaking dumb ass with yellow skin! forget about that'

Dieeeeeeeet and lose weight. 3more KGs to go. The same old method used- D'tox Trimm, which is also my only weapon to lose weight in a short period. It is a must eat pill before I go to bed every night. 

2. Spend less, save even more

Who the ass on earth doesn't like money? I love money, & I really do. As usual, take part of my pocket money and keep it in my saving account, but what to be achieved is, double up the saving! Save even more, maybe increased from 200 every month to 300? At least I need to save a little more than usual until September. Fyi, I have a trip on this September with my family and friends to Bangkok. Now you know why I want to save more just in case I will spend even more in Bangkok then in Malaysia.

3. Be more confident

Seriously, I really need to be more confident in meeting new friends and facing my friends. I have very low confident when facing people that are way more better than me, I know right, silly thinking, but what to do, I'm trying really hard to get rid of this stupid minded. BE CONFIDENT, FIGHTING!

That are all I can think of for now

Gonna back to revision again, exam tmr

Ciao, xx