Mistake to be avoided

I don't know how and what to do. I'm imbalance and heart extremely not feeling well. I don't know if I should bear thing like this, to be this low. I'm a girl that need someone to take care of but not hurting me this badly and letting me bear all the shits. When I say I'm ready, I'm ready to let go. & this time, I will keep myself to myself. Not you, not him, not anyone else.

I made promise that I'm not able to keep. But I'm trying really really hard to keep that promise, even though its not a big deal, but promise like this will get myself imbalance and I don't know. It is just so not me. Revenge not the best thing to do now. At first I regretted of what I did, but now, it seems to be reasonable. Even though it is reasonable, but I will never ever let this thing happen again, I hate me doing thing like this. I really do.

No more mistake like this. Don't ever do it again VV! Fighting...