Too late to realise

The feeling at this moment, not sad, but I see what is behind the lies. To me, always family comes first, friendship and love comes second.

What hurt the most is..... Friendship can't stand for argument, and argument do spoiled friendship. It doesn't matter how long your friendship, but once it attacked by that stupid argument. Everything just changed.

I appreciate friendship very much. If not I wouldn't apologise, wouldn't try so hard to pull it back after argument.

Heart skip a beat when you already know the truth but you still want to ask the question just because you want to get the answer itself from these human being. What hurt the most is, the truth and the answer is different, no idea how to handle but just let it be. Keep convinced myself that this is not true, this is not true. But I saw it with my own eyes, but people still lied. Keeping the lies, and the truth will never revealed.

What keep me strong is my only ambitious. Wanted to finish my study as soon as possible, so that I can explore to other countries to meet more people, to learn how to communicate with different type of people, how to social well with people.

No people will stay forever, the only person that will never leave you is your shadow...

Cheer up, xx

Random#4

Feel like blogging at this hour. Just wanted to share something with you all? Nah, I know not much people will be seeing my blog, but I still wanna share it :)

Beg once... Rejected
Beg twice... Rejected x2
Want me to beg for the third time? In your dream :)

Everyone has their own principle in life, and so do I. Don't let people step over the line of your limit. People will only take you for granted. But I once told myself, if I can take it, I will bear it down. I'm not that kind of person that you can simply step on it, I'm not saying that I'm good or I won't take people for granted.

If people apologise or head down to you, accept it, don't doh doh lan yeh. That's the main point of this post hahaha. Not every mistake can be forgive, you just gotta take your responsible for making such mistake. GOOD LUCK!

YOLO

Sometimes I think I'm ready, but sometimes I think I'm not. What do I want? What do I really want? What do I care the most? What matter the most to me?

Questions spinning in my mind, but there is no answer for all these questions.

The only sentence that I keep reminding myself is YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE!

Don't waste your time on something that will bring you down. Work harder, play harder. You have better thing to chase on, remember the only ambitious? Yes, never give up!

Love,
Vivian

Random#3

如果你问我, 爱情对我重要吗? 我会说, 如果没有爱情也许我会活不下去吧? 是有点夸张啦, 可是我是觉得爱情很重要啦..

爱情能让一个人心情变得很好很好也会变得很差很差. 我对爱情很专一, 一旦爱上了就不容易变.爱情对一个20岁出头的女生来说应该是爱的轰轰烈烈的不是吗?

迷茫.迷茫的未来,迷茫的爱情,迷茫的前途.

Lazy-Go-Happy Life

Having examination these two days.
Did not get enough sleep in days, that's why I look so yuck in the pic above, can see my eye-bags and dark circles and all. A peace sign to covered my stress.

Will get my lazy-go-happy life back after tomorrow

Gonna enjoy my April break in KK on the 7th April

I'm coming home, I'm coming home ...

Mistake to be avoided

I don't know how and what to do. I'm imbalance and heart extremely not feeling well. I don't know if I should bear thing like this, to be this low. I'm a girl that need someone to take care of but not hurting me this badly and letting me bear all the shits. When I say I'm ready, I'm ready to let go. & this time, I will keep myself to myself. Not you, not him, not anyone else.

I made promise that I'm not able to keep. But I'm trying really really hard to keep that promise, even though its not a big deal, but promise like this will get myself imbalance and I don't know. It is just so not me. Revenge not the best thing to do now. At first I regretted of what I did, but now, it seems to be reasonable. Even though it is reasonable, but I will never ever let this thing happen again, I hate me doing thing like this. I really do.

No more mistake like this. Don't ever do it again VV! Fighting...

New year, new resolution in 2013

Obviously, from the topic above, I'm gonna blog about my new year resolution. Time pass really really fast, just like you blink your eyes once, then here's a brand new year again. I've been thinking over and over again what I have not achieved last year and what I actually want to achieve in this year. *mind stuck for a second*

1. Build the best out of me 

I always wanted to be a better person, to build what is the best out of me. Honestly speaking, I don't find any 'best' in me. I always wanted to look good without any make up but in the opposite said, I always ended up look like a freaking dumb ass with yellow skin! forget about that'

Dieeeeeeeet and lose weight. 3more KGs to go. The same old method used- D'tox Trimm, which is also my only weapon to lose weight in a short period. It is a must eat pill before I go to bed every night. 

2. Spend less, save even more

Who the ass on earth doesn't like money? I love money, & I really do. As usual, take part of my pocket money and keep it in my saving account, but what to be achieved is, double up the saving! Save even more, maybe increased from 200 every month to 300? At least I need to save a little more than usual until September. Fyi, I have a trip on this September with my family and friends to Bangkok. Now you know why I want to save more just in case I will spend even more in Bangkok then in Malaysia.

3. Be more confident

Seriously, I really need to be more confident in meeting new friends and facing my friends. I have very low confident when facing people that are way more better than me, I know right, silly thinking, but what to do, I'm trying really hard to get rid of this stupid minded. BE CONFIDENT, FIGHTING!

That are all I can think of for now

Gonna back to revision again, exam tmr

Ciao, xx