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I went to Pavilion with NN & Sam the other day for movie, The Fierce Wife. Rating for the movie, 7/10. The movie is quite touching, but I think it is not worth to watch it in cinema. Lol. So NN decided to get me my late birthday present, even thought it had passed more than a month, and it's already October now, but present still accepted hahaha! Yayy, she get me a pair of Birkenstock in red! ✌ Thankyouhunneyy 😘

Imma rush for my research proposal now. Ciaoooo

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It's just who I am.

You will always be remembered, my dear grandmother

Look at the title of this post and you know what's all this about about. It has been 16 days without grandma in this world. I miss her, I do miss her very much.

Yesterday I went to Ikea for the meatballs and curry puff. So there is this old grandma sitting on the wheel chair having her meatballs and all. I shed a tear cuz this scene made me thought of my grandma who always got the healthy and luck with. But the truth is, she was no longer in this world.

Few days ago, I dreamt of grandma. The dream was so real, I always feel that she is just right beside us and watching. I dreamt that I went to a restaurant with all my relatives few days after grandma passed away, so there is this old woman standing right in front of me. Wait!! Is that grandma? I ran to her and her hug tightly! *the hug is real, I can feel her body temperature and all, in my dream* then I asked, what are you doing here grandma? I thought you already went to a better place? She said, yeah, I did but someone gave me a chance to stay alive but with one condition, I can't walk like how I used to walk (something's wrong when she's walking, she can't walk properly) me: ok, So how are you doing during the days you left us? Grandma: I'm good, I was there in the house, I can see you all was crying for me, but I couldn't interact with you all (we can't see her)

There is no ending for this dream. But it just ended like this. I hope the dream was real, so that grandma will stay alive now. From the moment grandma left this world, I learnt one thing, which I need to appreciate everyone around me, especially my family.

Stage Club @ KL

It was my first time went to Stage Club. FYI, I don't club so often in KL 😳 If I'm not mistaken, there were 15/16 of us that night. We went out from house at around 10pm, but guess what, it took us more than one hour to reach there. We lost our way while searching for this club. Stage Club didn't reach my expectation, not as good as the other club. Uh, so here's some photos I took that night.

Went to Mamak after club as what we do always. :)

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One's said, love is irresistible, no matter how hard we try to stop loving, it just can't be done.
Once they gone, you wouldn't want to fall in love or get into a new relationship again.
But I said, the next one will always better than the previous one, even though sometimes I disagreed with what I've said, but this is life isn't?

Life is about to explore, to deal with problems, go through the hard time, bear all the pain from different situation, it can be heart broken or anything.
Things don't just happen like what we want it to be. Lease expected, least disappointed. 
Sometimes it is even better to not set the position of someone in your heart, so when they left, you wouldn't need to bear the heart broken moment so much. Anyway, I'm referring to people that do not have blood-related relationship with us. Human always do thing duplicity, mouth saying this, but heart thinking that. Yes, this is exactly what we are.

One's said, everything happens has it own reason, you just need to figure out what it is. Because mistake is what makes us who we are today. So, if someone decided to leave you behind, just let it go all right, even if it is really hard to move on, but you still have to, there is no point to holding back.

Be with someone who is going to make you a better person. 

What is future all about

Future? I have been always curious about what kind of person I will become when I grow up. What job I will be doing at the rest of my life. Who will be there for me in my entire life without walking away. There are too many questionnaire pop out in my mind. & that is what bothering me every night when I laying on my bed. Thinking question that I will never get the answer unless I go through it.

I may not be a good human being in your eyes, but I swear to god, I've changed, I changed to not repeat the same mistake over again. I have no idea whose I'm gonna deal with the next day, people come and go everyday. Who will stay, who will leave? Who is true, who is fake?

I'm trying my best to do thing to the best and one's say that, whoever that give up on you and leave you alone, let them go, don't hold into it. Build the best out of you and fight till the end. Create your own story, and perhaps let people draw or fill in some color in your story while you're creating them. But never let them erase your story line and make it become black & white.

Life is colorful. Keep on fighting, you will definitely get what you want in the future .