Mistake to be avoided

I don't know how and what to do. I'm imbalance and heart extremely not feeling well. I don't know if I should bear thing like this, to be this low. I'm a girl that need someone to take care of but not hurting me this badly and letting me bear all the shits. When I say I'm ready, I'm ready to let go. & this time, I will keep myself to myself. Not you, not him, not anyone else.

I made promise that I'm not able to keep. But I'm trying really really hard to keep that promise, even though its not a big deal, but promise like this will get myself imbalance and I don't know. It is just so not me. Revenge not the best thing to do now. At first I regretted of what I did, but now, it seems to be reasonable. Even though it is reasonable, but I will never ever let this thing happen again, I hate me doing thing like this. I really do.

No more mistake like this. Don't ever do it again VV! Fighting...

New year, new resolution in 2013

Obviously, from the topic above, I'm gonna blog about my new year resolution. Time pass really really fast, just like you blink your eyes once, then here's a brand new year again. I've been thinking over and over again what I have not achieved last year and what I actually want to achieve in this year. *mind stuck for a second*

1. Build the best out of me 

I always wanted to be a better person, to build what is the best out of me. Honestly speaking, I don't find any 'best' in me. I always wanted to look good without any make up but in the opposite said, I always ended up look like a freaking dumb ass with yellow skin! forget about that'

Dieeeeeeeet and lose weight. 3more KGs to go. The same old method used- D'tox Trimm, which is also my only weapon to lose weight in a short period. It is a must eat pill before I go to bed every night. 

2. Spend less, save even more

Who the ass on earth doesn't like money? I love money, & I really do. As usual, take part of my pocket money and keep it in my saving account, but what to be achieved is, double up the saving! Save even more, maybe increased from 200 every month to 300? At least I need to save a little more than usual until September. Fyi, I have a trip on this September with my family and friends to Bangkok. Now you know why I want to save more just in case I will spend even more in Bangkok then in Malaysia.

3. Be more confident

Seriously, I really need to be more confident in meeting new friends and facing my friends. I have very low confident when facing people that are way more better than me, I know right, silly thinking, but what to do, I'm trying really hard to get rid of this stupid minded. BE CONFIDENT, FIGHTING!

That are all I can think of for now

Gonna back to revision again, exam tmr

Ciao, xx